welcome to my world . please take of your shoes XD

something to tell ..

2008-05-03T17:17:00.000-07:00

it's the birthday of my baby sis today , May 4 , 'o8. oh nothing , just wanna share to you guys that it's been 3 years now that i started becoming a YAYO .. -___-" frustrating work , you can't do stuff that you would normally like to do UNDISTURBED. it's always "make dede for me" , "where's my bango2x[ her bibiron ]" , "pangit ka[ for no particular reason whatsoever ]" , and keeps on asking every bit of information about me. God! as if we wont be spending decades together? sheesh. oh nothing. just an annoyed kuya right now. haha. XD

~make love not war XD

updates ...

2008-04-30T01:37:00.000-07:00

so just some updates in my life right now ..

SUMMER'S HOT !!!

~literally guys , it's freakin' hot !! oh how i wanna go to the beach to swim and surf and whatnot. the only thing that stops me from doing enjoying is the damn sun. i know its Global Warming and all , but God! does it really have to be this hot ? :|

SPC get ready for me , cuz im not ready for you .. @_@

~well , i just finished enrolling in SPC for BSN-1. *sigh* i mean its a nice small school w/ an uber big reputation , but im leaving a lot of people cuz they're all going to ADJ .. *siiiiiiiiiiigh* oh well , i'll just make the best of it somehow. well i gotta learn to love you BSN-1 cuz if i don't im screwed.

PC room , almost always locked >__<

~yeah yeah , our house has a pc room. but thanks to my mom she keeps on locking it cuz i dont have any control over myself. [ really now? x] ] well that's why im not updating this blog or my fs that much cuz i barely use the pc when im at home. i wanna go adik mode again but my mom's just so .. err .. >__<

Missing USB !!!

~my usb cord for my iPod shuffle got lost in school , now my iPod is very worthless. do you know the worst part? they dont sell that part anymore cuz its out of date. WTF?!

So this is just an update of my life as of now .. [ which btw sucks hard right now :| ]

~ make love not war XD

so you've noticed too . XD

2008-04-26T05:24:00.000-07:00

well , i just updated my blog skin cuz face it . It was pretty boring before , not to mention lifeless . what made me change my skin was when someone close to me changed hers .. so i kinda followed her . but keep in mind i didn't copy her skin ! >_< hmm . what else to say ? i love my new layout for my blog . it gives me a reason to write here again . LOL . but still my layout isn't really finished cuz i still have a lot of things to change and put on there . oh well -___-" , guess i gotta start right now . haller back to you guys .

~ make love not war XD

i miss you ... :|

2008-04-10T22:46:00.000-07:00

this is just a song that i can relate to as we are so far away , but still loving ea. other .. college is tough .. but we'll pull through .. i miss you ..

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Dark stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

2nd possibilty XD

2008-03-24T01:30:00.000-07:00

well well well , what can i say . . words are to small to express how i feel right now , i can graduate . thank God ! :] i would like to thank all my family and friends [especially PDA group for tutoring me w/ those late night stays] . never gonna forget you guys , i guess im gonna enjoy my summer time after all .. :]

my life in summer (most probably)

2008-03-20T17:42:00.000-07:00

ok so im going to state 2 most likely probabilities in what may or may not happen in my summer life this '08.

here we go:

possibility 1(the bad chance): if worse comes to worst i may ~~not~~ march together w/ my batch . if that God cursing day will happen i would surely be going to hell at summer , not literally though , but still quite bad :| i would ~~embarance && let down my family , i would be a laughing stock among my peers and above all i will be a failure~~. i know it sucks to be at that situation . i will not enjoy my "vacation" cuz after everything is said and done i will still be talking summer class in ~~MATH~~ in order for me to graduate w/o the togo , diploma and the happiness of my family . damn i screwed up BIG TIME . i guess this is what will happen if possibility 1 might occur . :|

this past few weeks) .. i even cried possibility 2(the good chance): if God smiles upon me this is what happens to me . i could march along w/ my batch and my ENTIRE family will get to relax again because of me , especially my parents(i caused them to worry about me alotinfront of them and trust me it was a very looooooooooooong time since i did such a thing . anyway this is supposed to be the happy possibility so il stop being emo now . @_@ after the graduation day(which will be on April 5 , '08) i will get to enjoy my privileges and get to hang out w/ my friends and the one i chose to be w/ until i grow old . yes i said it . :] here is a list of what i may do during my summer time :
~skim board! XD
~surfing in dahican beach. :]
~net all day if im at home , when im out il most likely be w/ MJ or friends :]
~bonding w/ my family in eden*still not decided*
~take entrance exam in ADJ(Ateneo de Jacinto)
~gonna study in advance in .. wait for it .. ~~NURSING~~ *barf*
~mountain climbing w/ my dad and cuz on Mt. Apo
~island hoping
~band practice w/ PDA*maybe*
~read novels again at home
~devote the rest of my time in MJ so she wont miss me to much . hehe XD
~show MJ i wont leave her and im keeping our thing alive :]
~maybe get close to her family ? ROFL :] that's up to her though :]

so what a summer il have right ? that's gonna be me if things work out right , if not . well its already written in possibility 1 . the day of judgement for me is on MONDAY(03/24/08) . i just hope that everything works out . so still my mind is still 5o-5o . i wont be happy until i can see my family be proud of me .

so i guess that's it for now . im gonna update this as soon as possible . btw , PRAYERS ARE REALLY HELPFUL FOR ME RIGHT NOW SO PLEASE AID ME .

im trying to find a song that i can relate to in the mood im feeling right now .. i guess this is what i feel w/ my situation right now .

this is it ..

2008-03-13T04:28:00.000-07:00

well tomorrow il be taking the BIGGEST test of my life as of now , im gona take my removal exam at math at 8:00 am .. damn i really wish i could make this .. i really wana march .. goodluck to all of us who are unlucky w/ grades .. hope we all pass ..

why let me answer this? XD

2008-03-09T04:49:00.000-07:00

Basics
Name: ****** **** ******** [ exact letter count ]
Age: 16
Hair color: black
Eye color: brownish black
Height: about 5'3" or 5'4" ?? o_O
Build: total hotti . hahaha XD

The Beginning
How did you two meet?
-- uhm , cuz of rachel lawan XD

How long did you know each other before you became official?
-- yeah like what she said , about a month .. but we practically knew ea. other about 90% during that time .. right now its 10o% XD

Who asked who?
-- i did (:

And how did you/he do it?
-- cornered her .. lol , just joking . :] i talked to her during our free period and asked her if i could court her .. :]

How did you know he liked you?
-- i guess i told her 1st at text , so she wouldn't be too shocked when i told her upfront :]

Now
How long have you been together?
-- 2 weeks and 2 days as of now :]

When and where was your first date?
-- my first real date w/ her was yesterday at mcdo , that was the only time we were together just the 2 of us . twas very sweet =3

How about first kiss?
-- uhh .. it was supposed to be on v.day but i was "torpe" , haha .. so the next day i kissed her :]

What do you two usually do together?
-- we talk , bite ea. other , huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug >:D< and steal kisses :]

How often do you get together?
-- almost everyday (:

Or call/text/IM each other?
-- almost everyday (:

Do your parents know about her, and does her's know about you?
-- my dad does as well as the rest of my family except my mom @_@ uhh .. idts -___-" but its all good :]

How have your friends reacted?
-- they all approved , no one was against us :]

When You're Together
Does she hold your hand?
-- im the one that holds her hand 1st , guess she's shy or something XD

Make you smile and laugh?
-- haha , she ALWAYS does XD

Does she tickle you?
-- not really , im the one doing the tickling :))

Does she steal kisses?
-- before not really , now sometimes :]

Is he shy about PDA (public displays of affection)?
-- hmm , idts so anymore .. before she was .. now she's the one asking for hugs(love it) XD

Describe how she looks at you:
-- like no one else is around , especially when we have these emo moments together .. :D

Do you ever have to initiate the flirting?
-- i always do . hahaha .. XD

When you're with her, how does she make you feel?
-- ill get this from a movie i watched , which is true for me .. "your the only who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time" , that sums it up :D

Other Things
How does she dress?
-- fashionista !! haha .. she looks great in anything she wears :]

How does she smell?
-- i can safely say it is very intoxicating .. wooh XD

Does she have any distinguishing features (facial features, piercings, etc)?
-- braces !! XD

What things do you two have in common?
-- have the same like's and dislike's , we love music , gaming , hobbies , pretty much everything under the sun :D

Is she a perfect for you?
-- yep , and i dont want her to change XD

Does she offer to pay for things?
-- she passes me load and stuff but im still not used to it :]

Have you gotten any gifts yet?
-- yeah ! 1 card , 1 chocolate , 1 poem , 1 necklace and a zillion hugs and kisses more to come :]]

Does she have any nicknames for you?
Or you for her?
-- she for me : Spidey , Master Manyak(the hell?) , SPARTAN XD
me for her : *MJ* , ***ee , adiiiik XD

Has she done anything significant for you?
-- just her time is significant to me if you know what i mean :]

What have you done for her?
-- being there for her whenever she needs me , although there is always that "risk" idc anymore XD

What is her most attractive physical feature?
-- everything , simply everything :]

Describe her tastes in music, movies, books, etc.:
-- music ? she likes emo sometimes , rock most of the time , on occasion house :]
movies ? she loves alvin and the frigin chipmunks , esp. theodore(cuz his fat ROFL) :)
books ? im guessing she likes those novel thingies :]

What are her friends like?
-- her friends are my friends too , how ironic :))

In The Times to Come
How long do you think this will last?
-- well lets just say im not planning to make this end :]

Do you think you'll get annoyed with him?
-- that's always a part of a relationship .. im sure we can manage though :)

Do you think you love her, and does she love you?
-- i bet my life on it , yes she does and i do too . only more :]

If you proposed, would she say yes?
-- i sure hope so , we already have our engagement ring .. ai :]

Would you look forward to growing old him?
-- expecting it :]

What's really in the future for you two?
-- we dont really know , but all we know is as long as "THERE'S A WILL THERE'S A WAY" we can manage pretty much everything XD

dont think of the distance ..

2008-03-09T00:18:00.000-08:00

no matter how far we are , im always your guy .. this time its for sure , just call me and i'll go no matter what .. just think of this when we are apart this summer .. btw , i have a song for you .. i hope you like it .. love you *MJ* .. i got emo here again @_@

no reaction please XD

2008-03-08T22:38:00.000-08:00

“My Sweetest Whatever”

When I wake up each day
The thought of you just comes right out of my mind
So excited to see YOU
Cant help wonder if your thinking of it too

I still remember the very 1st time I saw you
You were so near but so far
Wasn’t sure what to do
As time passed us by we walked our separate ways

But fate brought us together in a weird way
When I got to know you
You seemed so real and true
That was something I have been looking for all these years

The one special girl who I could give my heart to and know that she wont break it
People said t’was impossible
Impossible is nothing when you believe

Now that you are finally mine
My dream is almost complete
We just have to hold on a little bit longer and take our time sharing what we have
No one really knows how much our love is and I’m sure it can’t be compared by anything God has given us

As I lay down on my bed
I dream of my sweetest dream
My sweetest dream is you
Thinking that your dreaming of me too

oh no im not good at this @_@

2008-03-08T08:03:00.000-08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! that sum's up what i fell right now .. trying very hard to make something for my someone that i have NEVER done for anyone before .. kept on asking opinion's form my friends and family .. they just said it's "nice","mka-kilabot","awwe" .. grr .. that wont satisfy me one bit , i wont her to react in someway that only she can give .. *sigh* well it really sucks to be me right now .. back to the drawing board, more paper's to crumple and more ink to waste @_@ have to get this right , have to ..

I PROMISE ... this is for my BOO

2008-03-06T08:52:00.000-08:00

this post is just for her .. since i really cant say it all in words when im infront of you cuz i might just cry and emo is ghey .. hahaha .. back to the topic , what i promised to you that i wont look for any other girl is TRUE , you know im worth it .. im really inlove w/ u, just dont wanna see u cry or get hurt cuz of me again .. i know our relationship is kinda tough .. scratch that .. REAL TOUGH .. but we both know we can do this .. im always here for you .. i just pray that God will give us little chances to be together , and yes im praying already(ganahah .. XD) hahai please please please dont think that il go around and look for other girls .. im not the same person i was before .. remember that im yours and your mine .. nothing in this world can take you away from me .. NO ONE AND NOTHING IN THIS WORLD BOO .. just so happy i can call u MINE, HOPE YOU WILL NEVER LET ME GO , HOPE YOU'LL NOT LOOK FOR ANOTHER , HOPE YOU'LL LOVE ME 4 D REST OF YOUR LIFE(and no im not saying forever cuz we both dont believe in that), LETS KEEP OUR RELATIONSHIP STRONG, i know boo the other parties will realize that what we have wont fade away cuz im really into you , im willing to do anything for you , just sucks that alot of things are gonna change for us cuz of our setting in SCHOOL -_______-" boo your really an important part of me .. and im not joking , I REALLY DO LOVE YOU MAJ ZENITRAM .. to bad we have to keep things so secretive though .. but still you really make me happy .. XOXO just wanna hug you right now ..

"where are you right now? il go to you whenever you want me to go to you , just tell me and ill find you." - Peter Galvez

the past is haunting ..

2008-03-06T08:46:00.000-08:00

hahai .. i think the title says it all , even though i try to forget or try to dodge my past it still come's to me .. damn it damn it damn it!! that was one reason why fought last wednesday .. no matter how hard i try to let her trust me she still wont .. but at least she is TRYING ..

damn why did i have to be such a whore before?! yes yes sad but true, dont need to talk about it anyway .. all i know is now i have changed and she knows it as well , -________-"

feb 22, '08 . . XD

2008-02-23T07:31:00.000-08:00

well well well, what can i say about yesterday .. hmm .. oh yeah .. best frigin night of my life! XD never thought that it be so SUPRISING .. oh man im the world's worst liar, she seen right through me .. hahaha .. its all good .. gave her something to remember me by under the funky disco balls and we danced all the way after .. then after prom we took our pic's on the admin building which is btw flooded by happy go lucky chicks and dudes who want to take their pic's before going home to their mommie's and daddie's .. ROFL XD after the picture taking was said and done we walked going to mts .. but before that Don and I had a little dare to show of our "muscles", so we carried our girls like friggin princess' and guess who won? the girls .. cuz Don and I were really exhausted for carrying about say, 30seconds? haha .. beat that guiness .. LOL XD so after that we stayed at gt. 3 and we hanged out a bit .. cuz the girls keep on complaining about their heels .. hell its not my fault they wore those cursed things @_@ so on we go after the break we finally reached our destination in mts .. blugre .. alas the place was jam packed w/ to many old people and atenean's .. so we went to the next best place for me there .. the park .. it was a suprise we could even find a bench for ourselves cuz its usually crowded w/ all sorts of people, any hoo that was the cherry of my night so to say .. you see , the girl i was w/ was bringing a chocolate box , and all 6 of us PDA group sat down and she gave it to me .. and she said earlier on before prom started that it was for elio and rachoink .. now who's the world's worst liar?! XD moving on, so she gave it to me and said "kainin natin ang chocolate", so me being the pig that i am opened it and on the other side was a heart shaped chocolate , and on the other was a big word saying YES .. so i sorta hanged a bit by seeing that .. then God slapped me on the face and it hit me .. she's my GF!! OMG WTF WTH love it ! that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me and the whole group cheered us on .. i may not be a firm believer in God right now but all im saying is, "THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING MY WISH COME TRUE" .. i love you MJ .. XD thanks to all the support of my best friends who rooted for me! thanks to the PDA group! see you all again in tue's .. and btw we are using are type c's for rachel, elio , dakay and myself while MJ and Don type b's .. just so you know XD

someone called me their "spider man"! or at least i think. lol

2008-02-21T15:35:00.000-08:00

well thats something funny to be called right? anywei nuff bout that spider man thing.. maybe the one who wrote it might LOL.. XD so today's the day of prom.. not so excited, just wanna get it over with. but nice thing bout prom this year is i can see my MJ(Mary Jane).. nyahaha.. (ok stop being weird @_@). il keep u updated on the things that will happen after prom XD spidey out. toink @_@

im starting to get affected..

2008-02-20T04:15:00.000-08:00

what can i say.. its not her fault.. not his fault either.. im starting to feel that i came between something that was already going on.. damn it sucks when she talks about him.. im sorry i said this.. it just gets me sometimes you know.. the thought that im w/ her makes me sooooo freagin' happy.. it just falls apart in someway when she mentions him.. err.. i gotta let this out cuz i know its not good to bottle my negative feelings inside.. people say im to fast.. the hell w/ them.. i dont care what people think about me.. as long as SHE knows me.. and i dont want people saying bad things to her and making her feel low.. you know who you are.. my friend said "dont get intimate na kasi mg college na rin tayo", funny thing is thats what i said to him.. but now it back fired to me.. and i really thought i would never find love at the most unexpected moment.. guess God just slapped me in the face since i never noticed she was the ONE.. hope she wont leave me.. cuz i wont leave her.. this time im hooked.. i dont want anything more than her company.. say what you want, but i want you to know that my feelings for her will never change..